When i see people like her who can be so happy with sweet nothings, some part of me cringes. i'll never be happy and like a sun bathing the ones around me with brightness and warmth. simplicity is like an unattainable goal, satisfaction's light years away. i'm drawn to the beauty of complexity, yet it does not give me happiness which is most easily attained through simplicity.

4th january,

11:08 pm
i have decided to try my best to make the ones around me happy, and not give only after i've received.

11:40 pm
i want to be better at accepting others

11:41 pm
today i painted skin with various colours, guided by my mood.